Lady Breeze

I'm sitting here alone with my self. It’s 03:15 am now. And obviously I can’t sleep. I was reading a book and then I stopped when I realized that I’m not concentrated enough. I’m listening to one of my favorite Waltz pieces from Tchaikovsky. Trying to fly away with my mind... far away... so far as I can. I’m actually trying to escape from something. I’m trying to keep my mind busy as I can and to stop thinking, but obviously it was an unsuccessful attempt. I'm lost inside my feelings and I can’t keep it any longer... at least writing it down here may clear my mind. I have been holding this for a while now inside me. I haven’t been feeling this in a long time. I’m trying to understand my self. Trying to analyze my behavior. What could be wrong with me? This can’t be true right? I’m trying to understand the situation. I’m trying to figure it out, actually I need to figure it out. Why need? Could that be an emotional breaking-through? I don’t know. But when could it happ...

Lately I have been having this graving feeling that I want to write but I don’t know about what. I want to write something. Something epic and heroic, b ut I’m not sure what something that may be.  And as you can see there is something missing, I'm lacking a topic, story, and timeline. Sometimes I find my thoughts and ideas are contrasting and disarranged. My problem is that I’m interested in too many things. And usually these things differ from one another. It seems that I can’t find any compatible pattern among my interests. I believe that once I find my core essence I’ll be able to have settled pure texture in my writings and that is when I find out the purpose of my life. What I’m sure of, whatever I will end up writing about will be mainly about Life, Travelling, Dreams, Thoughts, Experience, Love, Future, People, Literature, Music, Art, Egypt, Austria and the list goes on... I believe that reflecting my thoughts and writing them down is an excellen...