Lady Breeze

As regards feeling pain, like a hand cut in battle, consider the body a robe you wear. When you meet someone you love, do you kiss their clothes?  Search out who's inside. Union with God is sweeter than body comforts. We have hands and feet different from these. Sometimes in dream we see them. That is not illusion. It's seeing truly. You do have a spirit body; don't dread leaving the physical one. Sometimes someone feels this truth so strongly that he or she can live in mountain solitude totally refreshed. The worried, heroic doings of men and women seem weary and futile to dervishes enjoying the light breeze of spirit.    - Rumi

I'm a deep thinker, and I tend to over-analyze every breath I take, yea, my poor friend Lama has to suffer with me, sometimes, ahmm yea, .. okay always :D I bet she hates me already for that. But “analyzing things” is in my blood, you can say, something I was born with. I never feel satisfied unless I analyze, peoples’ behaviors, situations,..ect Usually I know exactly what I want and what I need to fulfill, in order to reach my aim in life. Therefore (thinking back) I actually never gave up on something! And here it comes for some reasons, I guess I’ll have to close my eyes and give up this time… just let it go, even without trying to fight for it. Maybe it’s the fear inside me that’s telling me: “Nesma, forget it, it won’t turn as you want!” But why? Maybe because it’s too good to be true? Well I know very well it’s too perfect, and that’s WHY I’m scared. I’m scared to take any further steps! Therefore, should I let it go? I don’t know why, but for some reasons, I have this wei...