So What?!

01.02.2011

Do you really think when you forbid telephone lines for a while, the internet and even not allowing people to walk on streets after 3 pm till 8 in the morning, will change anything?? Well my dear I guess you are wrong informed. You are building a very big wall between you and your nation. People feel suppressed and hatred is growing everyday stronger in their hearts.

I am sitting since almost a week now at home and can not go out on the streets, just like everyone. No internet; means I have no connection with the other world, no connection with my very close friends in other countries. All I can do is watching the news on “Algesira”, “Alarabiya” and “BBC”. I hear from time to time “Bombs” -very near to my house- and I do not know if someone got killed or not.

The only positive thing about is that I actually realized in this week, I have spent much more time with my family.

Sometimes I ask my self, does life really make sense, when we all someday will die? Most of things does not go as we wish; we have lots of problems in our government, poverty is everywhere, most of people you meet on streets are not truthfully honest anymore, someone has to cheat on you, students after they graduate, do not find a job; leads that they can not get married and build a family like normal people do. – Are they actually still normal people?- We feel that no one hear us, why all of that? So what? Are we going to watch all of that in silence? Why can’t we take actions? We do try, But sadly nothing happens in return. We are not powerless, we just need a push!

And no one is the best, because no body is perfect! So, there has to be a change, I am not talking about a specific change, just a change that will make everyone of us happy with his own life!

While I was looking out of the window, I thought, someday, everything we have been through in this tough week will be writing in our history books, will be filmed and everyone will talk and write about it. I was thinking, while I will be studying with my children history someday, they will ask me for sure, Mummy how was it?  What did you and your friends do? Have you thought about that? What am I going to say? There where clashes between opponents and supporters of Mubarak, people of the same country, our brothers and sisters are killing each other?

In my opinion, Things Are Getting Worse and I came to the point that I do not know what is Good or Bad for our country?! Am I for Him or Not?! Against or With?! Yes or No?!

Sometimes you just need to start over again, in order to fly. . .

People, go home, our economy has taken a huge fall; we need establishment in our country!