Lady Breeze

I'm sitting here alone with my self. It’s 03:15 am now. And obviously I can’t sleep. I was reading a book and then I stopped when I realized that I’m not concentrated enough. I’m listening to one of my favorite Waltz pieces from Tchaikovsky. Trying to fly away with my mind... far away... so far as I can. I’m actually trying to escape from something. I’m trying to keep my mind busy as I can and to stop thinking, but obviously it was an unsuccessful attempt. I'm lost inside my feelings and I can’t keep it any longer... at least writing it down here may clear my mind. I have been holding this for a while now inside me. I haven’t been feeling this in a long time. I’m trying to understand my self. Trying to analyze my behavior. What could be wrong with me? This can’t be true right? I’m trying to understand the situation. I’m trying to figure it out, actually I need to figure it out. Why need? Could that be an emotional breaking-through? I don’t know. But when could it happ...

Lately I have been having this graving feeling that I want to write but I don’t know about what. I want to write something. Something epic and heroic, b ut I’m not sure what something that may be.  And as you can see there is something missing, I'm lacking a topic, story, and timeline. Sometimes I find my thoughts and ideas are contrasting and disarranged. My problem is that I’m interested in too many things. And usually these things differ from one another. It seems that I can’t find any compatible pattern among my interests. I believe that once I find my core essence I’ll be able to have settled pure texture in my writings and that is when I find out the purpose of my life. What I’m sure of, whatever I will end up writing about will be mainly about Life, Travelling, Dreams, Thoughts, Experience, Love, Future, People, Literature, Music, Art, Egypt, Austria and the list goes on... I believe that reflecting my thoughts and writing them down is an excellen...

When something begins you generally have no idea how it is going to end. The house you were going to sell becomes your home. The roommates you were forced to take in become your family and the one night stand you were determined to forget becomes the love of your life.  We spend our whole lives worrying about the future, planning the future, trying to predict the future. As if figuring it out will somehow cushion the blow but the future is always changing. The future is the whole of our deepest fears and our wildest hopes but one thing is certain. When it finally reveals itself, the future is never the way we imagined it. -  Meredith Grey  (Season 5, Ep.22 -Here’s To The Future Days) 

 "You know, we spend so much of our lives not saying the things we want to say… The things we should say. We speak in code, we send little messages; origami. So now, plainly, simply, I want to say that I love you both. Very much. And I want you to promise me, that you’re gonna tell my child… that you’re gonna tell my child how much they’re loved everyday. And remind them how lucky they are… to be free, because we are. We’re free now, finally. We’re free." -  Michael Scofield, Prison Break

Some people believe that without history our lives amount to nothing. At some point we all have to choose. Do we fall back on what we know or do we step forward to something new? It’s hard not to be haunted by our past. Our history is what shapes us, what guides us. Our history resurfaces time after time after time. So we have to remember, the most important history is the history we’re making today.

You need boundaries between you and the rest of the world. Other people are far too messy. It’s all about lines. Drawing lines in the sand and praying like hell nobody crosses them.  At some point you have to make a decision. Boundaries don’t keep other people out, they fence you in. Life is messy, that’s how were made. So you can waste your life drawing lines or you can live your life crossing them. But there are some lines that are way too dangerous to cross.  Here’s how I see it, if you are willing to take the chance and the risk, the view from the other side is spectacular. As the saying says: The grace on the other side is greener.

Lets have a flashback. Remember when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales? That fantasy and magical dreams of what your life would be like? The white dress and Prince Charming that would carry you away to the castle on a hill? You lay in bed at night. You close your eyes and you have a complete utter faith. Santa Clause, Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming…They were so close to your imagination that you even could taste them and feel how truth it could be.. logically you take it for granted, why shouldn’t you as a kid you would ask your self? All the movies, cartoons and stories that you used to watch are having a happy ending, aren’t they? But eventually the sooner or later you will face the ugly truth and you will grow up one day, you will open your eyes and the fairy tale will disappear.  Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is, it’s hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely, because most people have faith that one day, the...

I’m a globie girl that wants to explore as much as possible of the world and get do know more about different cultures. I was born to travel. (Will get to the travelling part later) I am from Cairo and have Turkish roots like most of Egyptians. I was born in Vienna, were I was raised and spent my teen - year’s. Vienna plays a big role in my life. If I started to talk about my love to this country, it’s a never-ending love story and I won’t finish today. - I need to finish because I still got a lot to do for today, maybe in another post -.  People who know me very well, know that I regard Egypt my country and my home, but not only because of my roots, family and friends who live there, but because I truthfully love it. There is something about Egypt and until this moment know one has figured out what is this “Something”. If you talked to any Egyptian who lived abroad especially in a not Middle Eastern country, he will understand what I’m saying. Unfortunately, Egyptians...

Secrets can't be hidden. Through out our lifespan our secrets will be exposed one day. Within the walls of your life, the truth will be stripped bare. One thing is certain, whatever it is we’re trying to hide, we’re never ready for that moment when the truth gets naked. That’s the problem with secrets –like misery, they love company. They pile up and up until they take over everything… until you don’t have room for anything else. The thing people forget is how good it can feel when you finally set your secrets free. Whether good or bad, at least they’re out in the open… like it or not. And once your secrets are out in the open, you don’t have to hide behind them anymore. The problem with secrets is –even when you think you’re in control, you’re not!

It feels as if words are stuck in my throat and my tongue is very closely cramped tied. My fingers have stopped craving… and my mind stopped thinking… I’m standing frozen! I thought it was a phase just for few days… But days followed weeks and weeks followed months and months followed year and year after year... And all of a sudden they became three years. I stopped writing for three years! It’s not that I didn’t have an idea to write about. In fact I had it all in my mind… But I wasn’t able to put them down. I wasn’t ready to fill these pages with what I feel. It was too much… Too much that you could actually feel how it was burning… It was too much to handle it… It wasn’t easy to dissect my heart and let it seep, flow down in feelings and emotions. My heart was set on fire! Nights and Mornings became all the same... to the point that you won’t be able to recognize the difference. There was no life. No soul. All you could hear was the voice of silence. You would wake up v...

Making mistakes is what make us humans. In the other side, forgiving humans is what gives us the ability to live together. "ليس عيباً أن نرتكب خطاً، لكن العيب أن لا نعتذر وأن لا نكابر، وخير الخطاؤون التوابون"

Spread your wings and fly, there are a lot of things to learn and experience that awaits you. - Nesma Attiatalla

We live in a world of technology and with that technology has come a lifestyle that has been surrounded by graphic designs. Life on the web is all about the graphic design of the content that is placed on the net everyday. Every piece of new content that comes on the web everyday comes with some form of graphic design to entice the presentation of that new information. It does not stop on the web though. Think about the books you read the simple covers and pictures that are there to help tell the story. The comic books that tell stories in complete graphic presentations. The movies we watch or the TV shows. Even the newspapers present their articles with some sort of graphic design no matter how simple it may be it’s there to help catch the eye and increase the value of what you are looking at or reading at that moment. The work of graphic designers is used everywhere. From the simplest of road signs to the ATM’s at banks they all have some sort of graphic to get your att...

“I do my thing, and you do your thing. I am not in this world to live up to your expectations, and you are not in this world to live up to mine. You are you, and I am I, and if by chance we find each other, it’s beautiful. If not, it can’t be helped.” - Fritz Perls