Everything happens for a reason!

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I have been always captured by confusion about everything I do, and once I started my spiritual journey of looking for the true identity of myself which was for almost 3 years, trying to find that true-self that everyone is talking about, I looked for anything that might help, and talked to many people, but I never had that peace inside which tells me my spirituality is blossomed.

 
Until one day I hade to choose between two roads, knowing that both lead to the same place, my energetic day feeling would say "take the longer of course!" but against the odds of the day I chose the short one.

I ended up walking across the most people I hate in my life! I was so worried that they would notice me or say hey, and I was even more worried about the rest of the day's mood that I will definitely spend blaming/cursing/hating remembering and regretting that certain past which they caused to me great pain and weakness. I walked. Almost tiptoed frightened from the probability of suffering from whatever might happen just by saying hey or just remembering! I pasted them, no changing greetings or anything at all, just a very fast memories flash back leaving me with frowned face and speeding heart beats.

I am stronger/older/wiser and I would never knew that, if I kept hiding in my shell refusing the destiny to teach me more about myself… when I was trying to cease the lesson, I imagined myself holding my destiny book having the ability to scan my life events and change whatever I want, and if I had that chance I would definitely erase that part and write down

"… and then she chooses the longer road to walk and arrives to the spot across the road safely".

...but this is what God wanted me to know that SAFELY shouldn't be away from all the bad stuff in our world, because of this very short event I knew I am stronger and I wouldn't know if I chose the other road and of course I would still have these scary thoughts and captured in the past.

I felt much protected and nobody can hurt me and God knows/plans the best way for me to go through my life, to be a better person. Since then I feel like I’m floating with the flow of harmony with my destiny, taking every single road believing that everything happens for a great reason planned by the greatest. Trust filled me that I can never get lost again in my life and even if I did I would smile, because it is already planned for the better. Spirituality was never an option for me; it was always a question could never answer until I had this calmness in my soul. Instead of fighting the waves, floating and flowing with it, is the way to find yourself around this tough world.
Location: Egypt

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