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I'm a deep thinker, and I tend to over-analyze every breath I take, yea, my poor friend Lama has to suffer with me, sometimes, ahmm yea, .. okay always :D I bet she hates me already for that. But “analyzing things” is in my blood, you can say, something I was born with. I never feel satisfied unless I analyze, peoples’ behaviors, situations,..ect

Usually I know exactly what I want and what I need to fulfill, in order to reach my aim in life. Therefore (thinking back) I actually never gave up on something! And here it comes for some reasons, I guess I’ll have to close my eyes and give up this time… just let it go, even without trying to fight for it. Maybe it’s the fear inside me that’s telling me: “Nesma, forget it, it won’t turn as you want!” But why? Maybe because it’s too good to be true? Well I know very well it’s too perfect, and that’s WHY I’m scared. I’m scared to take any further steps! Therefore, should I let it go?

I don’t know why, but for some reasons, I have this weird feeling, that’s following me the whole day long. It’s difficult to explain it, since I don’t know what the hell is wrong with me today?! It feels kind of uncertain and soo unsecure. Why? Why on earth I feel like that?  Hmmm.. I guess I’m making my life very complicated! Don’t you think so? You see, I told you I think too much and it’s very annoying. But yea, that doesn’t really help me at the moment. I can’t get it out of my mind!!!
Who knows what the future holds for me?

My Grandma (god bless her) used to tell me, that no matter what happens, everything happens for a reason in this world! I guess I should just wait and see and if it’s meant to be it will be! Yea I guess I’ll need patience.

Whatever ... back to work!

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