Lady Breeze

In less than 12 hours I’ll hit the ground in Vienna ! Yes, it all came for a sudden! I hold this country so close to my heart. I still can’t believe, me taking such a quick decision! Since I have university and mountains of things to do, I left all behind and decided for a short break. I feel that since I’m back in Egypt , I didn’t really take holidays, just working, working and working, which is true, except during the revolution, if u would call it "vacation". I can’t believe that I’m going to see my friends finally again. However I didn’t tell them, I would rather surprise them! :) I’m sooo excided! I thought would it be hard coming back? Would I have this kind of " mixture of emotions"? Will everything be the same as I left it? Did the people change?   Although I have been exactly 8 months away, but I feel as if they were 8 years. Well let’s see then. I should start packing… In any case, expect another entry very soon! 

Seriously, I can’t really understand people. Why don’t they mind their own business?! I wonder why not everyone focuses on his own things and leave everyone alone?! Is it that difficult?! What’s the point of it anyway? In the end they won’t even change anything, because Whatever you think of, I’m going to do what I want to do and what I think is good for me, weather you like it or not! Would it hurt you? No! Would it change anything in your life? No! Then please, do me a favor and leave me A.L.O.N.E! When it comes to my Future, hands off! Believe me you don’t want to mess out with me! I have a purpose to fulfill my life and I’m not going to allow anyone to stop me from building my future, very simple I won't let anything get in my way, God willing.    

Since last Saturday was going to be a long day and have lots of things to catch up with and feel that I almost did nothing useful the day before, I decided to force my self and wake up at 3:30 am, but I ended up waking at 4:45 am. Took quickly my shower, prayed and made a cup of Earl Grey Tea and started to practice “Prelude # 4 – Chopin” on the piano. Yes I played piano around 5 am in the morning! Anyways, I’m not really satisfied with my piano results; I don’t give that much time for practicing. It’s not that I don’t want to, but sadly I don’t really have time. I spend almost my time at university, working on school work and activities, nevertheless I should fit piano somewhere in my daily program, practicing for one hour a day wont really hurt, or? Anyways, for some reasons I realized it was already 7:30 am and I should get ready. I took on the new Orange Top, packed my Music- notes, my note book (in case I would revise for my exam - that I would take later today) and my hand-book ...

Seit ich in Ägypten angekommen bin rede ich selten Deutsch. Manchmal habe ich den Gefühl dass ich deutsch langsam verlernen werde, dass darf ja doch nicht wahr sein! Wann soll ich bitte Deutsch reden? und die aller wichtigste Frage mit wem? Naja trotzdem gebe ich mein Bestes. Es kommen Zeiten wo ich einfach alleine sitzen will. Wo ich zeit nur für mich haben will. Da will ich einfach mich selbst entdecken, mich besser kennen lernen und überhaupt denn Sinn meines Lebens erkennen. Manchmal allein zu sein ist nicht einsam, wie wir alle glauben. Denn jeder verdient ein paar Solo-Zeit; Zeit für Gedanken, Klarheit, Zeit für Entscheidungen in meinem leben etc etc. Ich will nicht die Welt retten, denn wenn jeder  von uns den Sinn seines Lebens findet und darauf arbeitet und das Beste daraus macht, so können wir unsere Umgebung, Leben, Welt und die Erde retten. Ich will nicht dass die Leute um mich kümmern, Ich mag die Menschen zu helfen mehr als sie mich. Ich finde immer, dass ich nicht...

I am enough of an artist to draw freely upon my imagination. Imagination is more important than knowledge. Knowledge is limited. Imagination encircles the world. Albert Einstein 

This being human is a guest house. Every morning a new arrival. A joy, a depression, a meanness, some momentary awareness comes as an unexpected visitor. Welcome and entertain them all! Even if they are a crowd of sorrows, who violently sweep your house empty of its furniture, still, treat each guest honorably. He may be clearing you out for some new delight. The dark thought, the shame, the malice. meet them at the door laughing and invite them in. Be grateful for whatever comes. because each has been sent as a guide from beyond. Jelaluddin Rumi